For the snippets we etched.

She did it, committed to it, and made it happen. It was her.

Scrunched up the courage, dreamt the decor, spun in her wishes, filled it with all the love she could muster up and believed in herself. The universe had to give in and call out - joy, the fusion, an assured manifestation. 'There you go.' Near perfect it was - an errand to run, a memoir that enticed butterflies, highs and lows, lessons learnt - as a smile played on her lips. The future-her would have to deal with some tremendous nostalgia. 'This is it. Won't you last forever?' 

Perhaps this is what life does, how the story goes. Pain passes; So does hale and hearty. Love does not always last, and if it does, there is some serious luck acting in. Some indomitable alignment of the better stars. Some amazing compensation of karma. 

In time, reality justified itself to her. Cosmoses crashed. The love was no whole; broken down into miniscule fragments, while each lost definition - the hourglass trickled endlessly. 'Please. Go away.' She transitioned instead - unable to stay, defend her creation, guard her own. But did transition imply what it demonstrated? Rhetorical moving on. To a new place with new people, with new things to do - yes. 'I can. I will.' A valiant attempt at letting go, needless to comprehend - in vain. She almost did. And she almost fooled herself. It both intensified and simplified the situation. Remaining rooted when the infallible realisation struck, cajoling others to percieve the change. 'Absolutely fine.' She tried to go along with the obvious calling, pretending to be oblivious to her lost world. Whatever she had given, whatever she had gotten - posed an unfamiliar consciousness. Did she know? In her deepest fears, her darkest hours - did she forecast? The elasticity of her emotions had failed her. There was nothing to feel anymore, to manipulate, to touch, to make known of herself. Lingering along. Like a graffittied wall - and the colours wouldn't shine out. Like exotic perfume - and the fragrance wouldn't twitch an amorous nerve. Limbo.

Then there was rain. There was a glisten, a glance. And a glare. 'No.' Slight sway. She gasped - when she travelled to her crux, when it all came rushing back. The future needed to mind its own. She would not allow the plausible to delve with the possible; Hope against will. She chose what she claimed to be her beacon, she forgot the fragile ways of perception. There would be no interference. There would be no change. A clairvoyant understanding guided her, led her to a trail. Here she had already been. She could wilt, she would not waver. A pendulum that throbbed with supposition, exposed the mythical old values that she had sworn by. How could she be anything like another? 'Again. Anew.'

Lost no more amidst what was, what had been, what might be. She transpired, and bequeathed, and loved. And she remembered to feel, like never to forget, like there was no morrow. 'An array of snippets etched in memory.'

(You might not be named, but it's for you alright. Fancy an ode? Here is to - be.)

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